life 3

credit @chxallah7530 on da gram song: dear diary, hi today i do be walking like jinx the cat also i would prolly date a clone of myself ((NOT IN A WEIRD WAY)) omggg ok guys im srry i wrote something very cool today but it was like 7000 chars and yt descs only allow 5000 and i couldnt just cut 2000 chars out thats crazy; i just need to chill out and stop thinking so much i think because i be in my head too much and kinda rely on caffeine too much to place myself in the real world.. which is fine right now i thankfully like coffee black so i dont consume a ton of sugar or anything i kinda dont like it tho because it sorta disables my cringe response... so i know that the stuff i say is kinda worthless but i dont immediately want to shut up, and lock myself in a closet when i talk to much like i normally do (ok slight exaggeration).. instead i just talk and talk and blah blah blah like right now- and i know what im doing i just dont care beacuse who cares? i dont. do you? so yeah i just talk because i realize this doesnt matter but i dont like that because its funner to me at least if i pretend stuff matters a lot and i stress over it ithink it sucks that i am such a different person when adenosine response vs no, but i think its a placebo anyway i think i should stop now song of the day: eternity - 9souls : ((listen to the whole ep its sosoo good))