03CAS - MOSCOW

Shot by Cas and Jiggy Edited by Cas Produced by rapsody3000 Mixed by Ade Hakim ~~~~~~~ On Your First Birthday with a Disembodied Father by Caitlin Mathey It feels terrible, to be excited. It feels awful to dream. Shoulders high and frightened, I can feel the knot in your neck, “Where will it come from? Who will wail next? Which corner will I find it hiding, Did you look beneath the bed?” But we never look and we get ill, instead. I think it will be dusty at my death. Remember how you put lotion on his elbows? A few days before. He was ashy. You were mean, teased it was eczema. “No, you see, when I’m drawing I lean on this elbow.” And he was right, the other smooth. Strong wrists from making heaps, Flesh in strokes and words exposed you