alexandra udinov | scream my name

I highly recommend you watch this in HD because otherwise it’s gonna look really messed up. I don’t know if I love this video or if I hate it. I think maybe the coloring was a bit too dark on some clips but then it was perfect on others and I just don’t know but I don’t have time to go back and adjust it, sadly. I’m glad I had enough time as it is to edit this video and I wish I had more time to edit more and maybe even perfect this one but you know school. So demanding yet so important. (yes, I’m finally admitting school is important out loud instead of just thinking it). I hope you go with the first one though and love this video because I’ve been trying to find songs to vid for a decade now. I kid you not, the reason why I haven’t been vidding lately (besides not having time) is not being able to find good songs to vid to the ideas I have in mind. And there were those times where I felt sick of all my fandoms and just wanted a clean, new fandom I could vid. You know that feeling when you vid something new? Yeah, that. I don’t know, I need new music to listen to so if any of you have good music suggestions or if you have an 8tracks (bc I don’t have spotify where I live so I can’t really go on that, but soundcloud also works) and you have awesome music recommendations, then hook me up because I’m in desperate need of viddable music. I’ve tried fanmixes on tumblr but most of the mixes I found were better for just laying down, thinking of scenes of that show and listening to it / seeing how it relates to your show. It’s so hard to find viddable songs nowadays, especially since most of the songs that are coming out are all meaningless and not to sound offensive or hateful, but I just like to vid meaningful songs ya know? Like yes, I’ll have a goofy video every once in a while or a song that’s a bit upbeat but I just feel like meaningful videos are easier for me to edit and I feel like I put my heart into them a lot more because I want them to turn out perfect. Okay, this is turning into a very long description. It’s probably long because I haven’t had to write a description in a while so idk, just like a little update for those who like to read descriptions. ALSO, merry christmas. kind of late since it’s 1am here but since it isn’t yet for most of you, it still works. and for future purposes, ignore this message because it won’t be christmas for you. unless you’re watching on christmas of 2015 (or any year after). (why am I leaving a message to future versions of my viewers and myself) OH AND ANOTHER THING (because I haven’t been here for a while so excuse me I have a lot to say) BUT WHAT THE FUCK YOU GUYS, my lydia video reached like views as of today and I’m just completely baffled and speechless as to how that came to be. I’ve never gotten that amount of views on any of my videos before so wow, that is such a huge deal to me. It’s also on the first page if you look up lydia martin fanvids so that’s super cool. And I have 72k lifetime views? That’s also super cool. And I managed to gain 120 more subscribers in one month which, if you think about, is such a huge number. Like imagine a 120 people right in front of you, that is CRAZY. I just wanted to say THANK YOU SO MUCH, if you’re reading this and you continue to like/comment on my videos and just follow me, like wow it’s just crazy to me that you’d choose to follow me and watch my videos. It makes me so happy and every time I get a new subscriber, it just makes me so giddy and happy inside, you have no idea. Vidding’s always been something I do for myself and I love to do for myself, just for the purpose of entertainment and improvement since (if you don’t know) this is what I wanna do, this is what I wanna pursue so it is such a big deal. I’ve been trying hard to improve my video quality, just because I realize how really shitty it is. And I will at some point, I just gotta get an external drive to store stuff, I only have 18gb left waaa. OK SORRY FOR GETTING ALL SAPPY YOU DIDN’T HAVE TO READ THAT I’M IN A WEIRD MOOD IT’S AFTER MIDNIGHT LEAVE ME BE LINKS; tumblr: twitter: ask me: (ask me things bc bored let’s chat let’s be friends)