TW: On Seeing CSA & Snuff Images of Myself In Mk Ultra & the Crippling Guilt of Throwing Them Away

In this video, I pour my heart out about the child sexual abuse and snuff images of myself (alone and alongside others) that I had the horrific burden and privilege of seeing during my deprogramming process. I talk about my experience with taking them to law enforcement and my ultimate “decision“ to throw the pictures away. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ A trigger warning for this video: csa and snuff images (graphic descriptions), the criminal “justice“ system, recovery meetings for survivors of child abuse, recovering memories, integration, incest, Monarch/Mk Ultra programming, polyfragmented dissociative identities, infiltrated/cult-run hospitals, halfway houses and sober homes, panic attacks, gaslighting (A note from 11/21/19: the warning above used to be longer but we have reduced the level of detail in the hopes that it’ll be more helpful for survivors) I also want to apologize to any survivors who may have been triggered by my clothing in this video. While there w