Signs of Betrayal - Contemplate

Lyrics: Sadness builds while happiness just passes by Violently I still try to relieve myself from the depression why So much to live for Sooner or later these feelings they will subside inside Agonizing over who I am In solitude is where I feel I stand Take another drink to block the pain Swearing at myself for my mistakes Will I make it through more years and rise above my fears Or will I fall away I’ve tasted the love and the hate For this I try to find the right or wrong reasons to die Things are difficult now so I contemplate And try to find the right or wrong reasons to die Several reasons I cannot let go For the people that still hold me close Life is never really all that bad Keep telling myself as I’m looking back Contemplate my own fate Stuck in this hole And now the walls start to close I close my eyes And scream for my life Why?