Relationship/Personal Problems

I am so sorry for me being a mess right now... Please help donate, help me get out of this predicament. I don’t want you guys to see my other video & look at Gray, or William, my boyfriend, like he’s a monster or some kind of an abusive guy because that isn’t the way it is. I just grew up VERY differently from him that has caused me to have so many set backs as an adult that makes me very childish in some instances & with certain things that we fight about & certain things that I deal with in my life & he just wants to help me be a better version of myself & realize that the world & life doesn’t work the way my head sometimes has me thinks it does, because of my disadvantages growing up & my BPD, (Borderline Personality Disorder,) I just want to be the best version of myself & not lie to myself. I need to work on myself SEVERELY, I guess the question now is, can we work on ourselves together? Or do we have to seperate to work on ourselves & then come back to