I Hate Myself - Natsuki Subaru’s Words | Re:Zero

I’ll tell you what kind of men I really am! I have no strength, but I want it all. I have no knowledge, but all I do is dream. There’s nothing I can do, but I struggle in vain like an idiot! I... I hate... I hate myself! All I do, is talk a big game and make myself sound like a big shot, when I can’t do anything! I never do anything, yet I complain with the best of them like it’s my job or something. Who the hell do I think I am!? I’m a fraud, it’s amazing that I can live like this and not feel ashamed! You know I’m right!? I’m an empty shell, there’s nothing inside me at all! I know there isn’t, guess that’s obvious, anybody could see that. Before I came to this place... Before I got into the situation that led me to all of you, do you have any idea what I did with my life? - I did nothing that’s what. I’ve never done a single thing worth mentioning, I had all that time and freedom but I