This song is one of the 5 stages of grief, namely Bargaining.
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Video by Daniel Hastings
Written by CellarDoor
Recorded by Assymetry Media
Mixed by VPR Audio
LYRICS
I stand still to reflect on the days that past
To realise that I might be free at last
The darkness creeps up on me
When I close my eyes
There is nothing to see
The fears I have would break every single one
I can’t stand not knowing of what will come
Looking back life’s been good to me
One day I will see
Its all meant to be
Mistake my kindness for weakness, betray my trust was you biggest fault
I find trust that your nights become sleepless, the wage paid for a vicious assault
And it’s the price we pay
For our existence
Every penny spend
While time persists
We all face a certain debt
Every man has his price
happiness is now for sale
Pull you down like the strongest vice
A system designed to fail
After all I don’t know who I am or what I should be
It tears me down as I try to look and see
That it’s all a game and the numbers don’t lie
I know that I will fail no matter how hard I try
The fears I have would break every single one
I can’t stand the thing that I have become
Looking back life’s been though on me
The deck that I have been dealt
Its all meant to be
As my failures linger
I know it’s all my fault
The fear of what’s yet to come
I know it will break me in the end
They made me do it
They made me do it
They made me do it
And it starts again