the letter

hope you never receive this letter. I just wish I’d get rid of this fetter. when you’re making me try my best you don’t make me feel any better, only make me feel worse and worse like the most destructive force. but, you know, I still value you. yes, the letter is very blue. you are the hardest test. I don’t feel safe or held because never before have I felt any actual pain in my chest. even if I fasten my seat belt I’ll die, you know, but I still drive. you’re making me feel alive because never before have I cried so much that it hurt my pride. I am a mess. wouldn’t use this pretentious word but I actually feel heartsore. please, at least be there less. but much better, please, be there more even if it is gonna be hard and tough. I have lost the challenge TRY NOT TO LOVE what is killing you. yes, the letter is very blue. marieensomnia, 2017