The Caretaker’s Full Dementia Experience

All music by Leyland Kirby & the musicians sampled All artwork by Ivan Seal -- An empty bliss beyond this World -- 0:00​ - All you are going to want to do is get back there 3:45​ - Moments of sufficient lucidity 7:33​ - The great hidden sea of the unconscious 10:35​ - Libet’s delay 14:02​ - I feel as if I might be vanishing 15:58​ - An empty bliss beyond this World 20:17​ - Bedded deep in longterm memory 22:06 - A relationship with the sublime 25:42 - Mental caverns without Sunshine 28:56 - Pared back to the minimal 30:41​ - Mental caverns without Sunshine 32:17​ - An empty bliss beyond this World 36:05​ - Tiny gradiations of loss 38:58​ - Camaraderie at arms length 43:43 - The sublime is disappointingly elusive 45:22​ - Fleeting dreams 48:25​ - Their story is lost -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 1 -- 52:21 - It’s just a burning memory 55:52 - We don’t have many days 59:24 - Late afternoon drifting 1:02:59 - Childishly fresh eyes 1:05:58 - Slightly bewildered 1:07:58 - Things that are beautiful and transient 1:12:33 - All that follows is true 1:16:05 - An autumnal equinox 1:18:52 - Quiet internal rebellions 1:22:23 - The loves of my entire life 1:26:27 - Into each others eyes 1:31:03 - My heart will stop in joy -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 2 -- 1:33:43 - A losing battle is raging 1:38:20 - Misplaced in time 1:43:04 - What does it matter how my heart breaks 1:45:41 - Glimpses of hope in trying times 1:50:24 - Surrendering to despair 1:55:28 - I still feel as though I am me 1:59:35 - Quiet dusk coming early 2:03:13 - Last moments of pure recall 2:07:05 - Denial unravelling 2:11:22 - The way ahead feels lonely -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 3 -- 2:15:37 - Back there Benjamin 2:19:52 - And heart breaks 2:23:57 - Hidden sea buried deep 2:25:17 - Libet’s all joyful camaraderie 2:28:30 - To the minimal great hidden 2:30:11 - Sublime beyond loss 2:32:22 - Bewildered in other eyes 2:34:14 - Long term dusk glimpses 2:37:47 - Gradations of arms length 2:39:19 - Drifting time misplaced 2:43:35 - Internal bewildered World 2:47:04 - Burning despair does ache 2:49:41 - Aching cavern without lucidity 2:51:00 - An empty bliss beyond this World 2:54:36 - Libet delay 2:58:34 - Mournful cameraderie -- Everywhere, an empty bliss -- 3:01:12 - Loss of want back there 3:06:32 - I might be vanishing 3:06:42 - Empty beyond beyond beyond 3:08:04 - Losing battle of loss 3:10:45 - Advanced plaque camaraderie 3:13:50 - All eyes bewildered 3:17:16 - Glimpses of life denial 3:19:52 - Equinox eyes will stop 3:22:52 - Losing loss of battle 3:25:30 - Plaque advanced despair 3:28:26 - Benjamin beyond bliss 3:29:32 - Drifting sublime hope 3:33:08 - Minimal all you are 3:36:45 - Internal unravel 3:40:23 - Dusk memory fraction 3:43:24 - Entanglement synapse ache 3:46:48 - And bliss everywhere bliss -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 4 -- 3:50:40 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions 4:12:48 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions 4:34:40 - Stage 4 Temporary Bliss State 4:55:42 - Stage 4 Post Awareness Confusions -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 5 -- 5:17:57 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements 5:40:32 - Stage 5 Advanced plaque entanglements 6:03:36 - Stage 5 Synapse retrogenesis 6:24:09 - Stage 5 Sudden time regression into isolation -- Everywhere at the end of time, Stage 6 -- 6:46:17 - Stage 6 A confusion so thick you forget forgetting 7:08:09 - Stage 6 A brutal bliss beyond this empty defeat 7:29:45 - Stage 6 Long decline is over 7:50:55 - Stage 6 Place in the World fades away -- Take care. It’s a desert out there... -- 8:12:15 - Take care. It’s a desert out there... I did not include albums such as Patience (after Sebald) and the CD version of Everywhere, an empty bliss because this is what I feel is the general consensus on the “required“ listenings, in order. #TheCaretaker