spike & buffy | she will always hate me

so I’m still obsessed with them so here’s another spuffy video is kinda the pov of always knew/thought he’d never have a chance with her & she’d never love first because he had no soul & then ’cause when he got a soul he didn’t believe she could ever forgive him for what he had tbh without s7 & him getting back his soul for he did would’ve completely destroyed this he did was horrible & i don’t think anyone didn’t hate it!!!! it made him realize that in order to ever become what he wanted to be, what she deserved, a better had to get back his soul, I think he truly changed & he did come as for as it was possible as a vampire without a to truly be a better man it was necessary to get back his soul and he realized that & did everything possible to achieve that as he said “buffy can get what she deserves“ ...and then the entire s7 h