Angel Nightmare - I Am Not Second(original song)

Lyrics: You are nothing, You are not in control. You have no values, you have no soul. I hate to see you crumble. I don’t want to see you waste away. I fucking hate myself for not forcing you to stay. Sometimes I question if I’m really r-real. Sometimes it hurts when I do not feel.(you know this.) You started to repair me. I was just starting to heal. How dare I enable myself to trust you? I guess I make asinine impulsive decisions too. It’s been so long since I’ve last cried, It’s been awhile since I’ve died inside. I’m fucking angry, I’m fucking sad. I want to hate you. Although, I know it will not last. You’ve deceived me with you contradicting lying. Manipulate me? No longer will I fall victim to your crying. Oh man, I’m really hurting. This fucking hurts. Gave up a large fragment of my life, but it wasn’t worth. I’m going insane. I’m losing every fiber of my mind. And the worst feeling is knowing I’ve wasted precious time.