Polaris - Dissipate

Dissipate by Polaris From the album ’Fatalism’, out now! Purchase, Stream at: I never asked for this burden I never asked for this cross that I bear on my back But like an ulcer scratching against my tongue I can’t leave it alone So you can find me down at the bottom With a stomach full of stones I can’t outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo But I won’t die pretending I’m not intending To see this through until I too become invisible to you So pull me under, be sure to leave no trace Never wonder, I see it on your face What do I have to do to demonstrate The way it makes me feel and think? I feel like I could fucking suffocate And you would barely blink I could suffocate and you would barely blink So I’ll sink, searching for an answer With a stomach full of stones These thoughts are like a cancer Growing in my bones I’ve made this hell my home Never again, sever the sin from within my soul The darker half that makes me whole I was only dreaming I was never here I was only dreaming Of how I’ll disappear I can’t outrun my fate, it follows like a shadow I put all of my faith in a saint without a halo But I won’t die pretending I’m not intending To see this through until I too become invisible to you (I was only dreaming) Invisible to you (I was never here) But I won’t die pretending I’m not intending to see this through Until I too become invisible to you I long to leave the past behind And tear out the thorn that’s in my side