i hate everything about you

ever since a couple months ago every time i open my mouth for more than 3 minutes or type for more than 3 seconds i increasingly feel the alert from my internal brain thought-task-manager to end the branch of thinking i am currently using -- its like when i try to communicate some idea that ive ever thought about for more than a couple minutes b4 my brain uses small shortcuts in explanation which result in the transmitted information being cryptic and dumb because i neglected to explain like 14 lateral jumps my brain made in that half-second which are required to make my words have meaning;; in other words everytime i talk or write, and try to add some think i have do before, by brain SCREAMS at me to shut up and my words turn into salad, soup, and circles. any1 with tips on how to be better at communication and not just rant for uncomfortably long please lmk also im trying to not foster parasocial relationships which is hard due to the nature of these descs, so please forget you ever saw this desc please thank you